Once I felt this nut go through my throat n get struck, I struggled for breadth,yelled for help and did all authentic mandatory drama till sumone very wise from the viscinity played the rescuing act of thumping me on my back and Yeh Lo-!!Down went the nut into my tummy.arousing a lotta excitement ,speculation and yes a lot of knowleddge-transfer with most ppl predicting and anticipating its grand exit out of my bowels the next day during the regular cleansing process-All's well that ends well!The question in the first place-y did i ever try to swallow it.Tons and loads of sands on the seashore get swept away by mighty ,bullying waves.We humans are no diffferent.It takes ages n aeons to build up a castle,,your little house of hypothetical yet concrete aspirations and standards you set for urself, sumtimes even with miscalculations about urself,more often an over estimation of ur credentials and credibility,nurture it with your dreams n fantasies,embellish it with every lil passion you have and then finally fling it across channels of despair and reject.There are times wen u feel like killing yourself,actually strangulating yourself with the tightest of ropes and yes,,,pulling it hard,till u yelp in pain,struggle in defeat n finally surrender to the horrendous capture of behemoth self killing thoughts ..You for sure then don't need an enemy at times,u can very comfortably be one to urself,e deadlier one infact.The journey ruptures you,your dreams stab you ,your passions maul you and your ambitions kill you......................Sometimes life can be cruel!!!!.
As part of my daily routine, I try to find something different in the numerous blogs available all over & came on to your profile. I must say when i read the first 2-3 posts I was just about to go to some other blogger to see if my search for something different will end for today & then i read this.
ReplyDeleteYou or some loved one of yours, seems to have come across some really painful failure or obstacle. Its so very well expressed behind the analogies & pseudonyms you've used, that i could actually feel the connection.
Yes dear, as you yourself have put it... Life can be cruel...
life is not cruel, life is a teacher and like the best of teachers,it puts u thru diff situations teaching u to adapt and to learn so that every time the castle is swept way by the waves, u learn to build an another one , one which would better withstand the next wave. And you do this by either making the walls strong enough to withstand the force of the waves head on or by making waterways for the water to flow through without damaging the castle. The former i feel is sticking to ur beliefs, not compromising ur goal and aspiring to achieve that goal at whtever cost and for me the waterways represent the compromises we make in life by settling for something less, underestimating our own potential, it is the easy route but the castle would never be strong.
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